Samosely
Clyde Kessler
We met the ghost of a self-settler
in Parashiv. She was kissing starlight.
She was prying spongy fire-coals from
her coat. Or she was petting a wounded fox
in a mirror, combing out its bones.
She sang. The voice was guitar strings
burning. She grinned. Her face milked
lantern light from a winter hill, and forced
her throat loose like feathers drowning in fog.
She said her name pushed away against houses.
Then a motorbike stretched an invisible circle
beyond her hands. “That was my son, even I
cannot see him,” she said.
Poet's Notes: “Samosely” is a Ukrainian term meaning “self-settlers” and refers to the people who have returned to live in or near the zones of exclusion from the Chernobyl accident despite the perils of exposure to radiation there.
About the Poet: Clyde Kessler lives in Radford, Virginia with his wife Kendall and their son. Several years ago, they added an art studio to their house and named it “Towhee Hill”. In 2017, Cedar Creek published his book of poems Fiddling At Midnight's Farmhouse, which Kendall illustrated.
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All Mine
Gerri Leen
You get used to the smell, the scent of burning...everything
Donkeys, camels, even people
Fabrics and foodstuffs, charred stone and metal
It all combines to smell like the feasts I was never invited to
The grand parties someone like me would never be part of
The rich here in Sodom, in neighboring Gomorrah
They don't—didn't—even see me
I am nothing
I am less than nothing
Begging scum, thieving garbage, I’ve been called both
Both are true, I suppose
But now, I take what I will
The rich are dead; their great houses lie blasted
As were the poorest hovels
I go from house to house
Finding treasures buried in the smoking rubble
I had nothing
Now I have it all
I remember that night, the night of the strangers
How the men came for them
I’d been those men’s toy before
They hadn't played gently, paid nothing for what they took
I lay bleeding for days
I've stayed away from gatherings after that
It’s sad to realize you’ll never feel safe again
Purity: the one thing I owned
They laughed as they took it
They couldn't take the strangers
Lot, the newcomer, intervened
Where was he when they came for me?
He offered to give them his daughters
Clearly we women were of little use to him
The men refused the women, why settle for
What they could take later?
When the strangers might leave
They would taste them while they could
A foolish choice on their part
They should have taken Lot’s girls
I saw Lot and his family flee
Then the scream of something...powerful
Evil, good, I’m still not sure
But fire began to fall from the sky, brimstone crashing down
Burning everything it touched
There is a unique horror
To the screams of a person on fire
The strangers found me, huddled beneath a wagon
“You are the least of them,” one said
His words hurt; the truth often does
“This will all be yours,” the other said
He stretched out his arms, the city in his embrace
There was no kindness in his eyes
He did this not for me but against the others
The fire didn't burn me
The brimstone didn't touch me
And when it was over, when the sky was blue again
I heard the first stranger’s voice
“Take what you will. It's all yours.”
Did he think I'd forgotten such a promise?
Fool. I would never—oh there, more gold
My sack drags painfully on my shoulder
I've found so much to take
When I run out of treasures here
I will travel to our sister city
Hopefully the ashes of lovely Gomorrah
Will hold riches just as sweet
Poet's Notes: Sodom and Gomorrah (and what comes after) is a horror story. Seriously, read Genesis 19. Is it such a stretch to imagine a lowest-of-the-low being singled out this way? My muse definitely didn't think so. I felt a sense of futility in our survivor's victory as I was writing. I hope she can give up looking for things that glitter and take what she has and secure a home where she'll finally be safe. But the odds are probably not in her favor.
About the Poet: Gerri Leen lives in Northern Virginia and originally hails from Seattle. You can find her poems in such places as: Eye to the Telescope, Star*Line, Dreams & Nightmares, Eternal Haunted Summer, and the upcoming Horror Writers Association Poetry Showcase Volume VI. She also writes prose of all kinds as Gerri Leen and romance as Kim Strattford.
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Trypanophobia
John C. Mannone
When I hear the thunder
of that name, I shudder.
It is kin to the fear of tyrants,
lizards like Tyrannosaurus.
Fears are the monsters
that will devour you
if you don’t call them out—
take names, kick dragons.
I see their teeth, needles
that want to jab me, I feel
their fire, choke on smoke
as they snort at me.
But today, I am a dragon
slayer, my sword is more
powerful than their teeth.
My sword is the words
on a shield of faith:
I will see no evil,
I will hear no evil.
Nor touch the roaring fire
from their tongues.
Their darts of doubt are lies.
I only feel the prick
of their death.
Poet’s Notes: “Trypanophobia” is a fear of needles. It might be mistaken for “tyrannophobia”, which in my mind conjures up “Tyrannosaurus”. These words merged in my mind, and a "needle monster" emerged as a dragon-like creature.
Editor’s Note: I enjoy the puns and elaborate metaphors here, as well as the way the poem morphs into a fantasy piece of sorts. For the record, “tyrannophobia” is a fear of dictatorship or tyrants. SWG
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Ghosts
In a Dunsmuir cabin I sat up in the cold pre-dawn
keeping company with 6 ghosts—
mother, father, a boy, 3 girls, the smallest with soot-smudged cheeks.
Lamplight didn’t dispel them, nor my husband’s shushing.
I looked so long I still see them before me as I write. Light-
brown hair, pale skin except at nose and nape where sun rays
scorched them as they had breathed and worked outside.
Sack-cloth shirts and dresses receded into the white-washed walls.
Sunflowers to noonday sun, their faces turned our way.
I’ve seen others, of course, in a Modesto motel, a farmhouse kitchen.
Keep silent, grandmother warned the summer I turned 13,
It’s a terrible thing to be doubted and worse to be believed.
When California mountain dawn slipped brightly through cobweb-laced
windows to quell filaments of fear, I stepped barefoot
onto the shack’s mossed door slab,
flat as a toppled tombstone.
Poet's Notes: In my teens and twenties I keenly felt the liminal world between the natural and supernatural. During a stay in a rented cabin in the woods, I woke up one night convinced that there were ghosts in the room. Newly married, my husband was both alarmed and loving. He stayed up all night with me while I described what I saw. Later, I recalled my grandmother's warning that the Scottish side of the family was fey. The poem began years later with a prompt from my friend Jeanine Stevens in a writing group she was leading. I don't remember the prompt but I do remember the relief at setting down the initial draft of the poem.
About the Poet: Alexa Mergen lives on a boat in the Sacramento-San Joaquin Delta. She grew up in Washington, D.C. and has also lived in cities and small towns in California, Michigan, Nevada, and West Virginia. Her most recent chapbook is “Winter Garden” (Meridian).
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